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I am so angry right now. My heart is on fire with rage. I haven't a clue as how to express this. I'm not good at expressing it. I'm not even sure what it's about or where it came from. Anger overwhelms me and because I rarely feel this way, I'm not very good at finding a way to release it.
As typical of me, I have returned to write...
You know what's interesting about anger? Everyone has their method. Some people get so angry, they throw a fit and start screaming, never thinking about their words. Others start punching things or even people. There are those who get so angry, they just have to leave. They'll go for a walk or a drive to cool down. And then, there's the calm one. The person who gets angry and somehow manages to stay calm, staring down whatever it is they're angry at until it submits. I don't even know what kind of person I am. I think there are varying types of anger in my case, ranging from "mildly annoyed" to "watch out, I'm pissed." Rarely ever do I feel like the latter. And even still, the extreme side of anger that I may possess is comparitively tame when examined next to anyone else.
I don't write about being angry very often... I'm not sure why. I'm not an angry person. You know who writes angrily very well? Sarah Hatter. Because she can convey her anger in all it's intensity, but make you laugh about it at the same time. I wish I could do that. But with me, it's more like, "Woah, she is really mad. That's sad..."
I'm just going to say that I am really angry at people and all their drama. They limbo between good and bad moods, forcing you to guess on which end their teetering all the time. Frankly, I'm fed up with all of it.
Why can't people just love God and be happy? (You don't have to answer that.)
As typical of me, I have returned to write...
You know what's interesting about anger? Everyone has their method. Some people get so angry, they throw a fit and start screaming, never thinking about their words. Others start punching things or even people. There are those who get so angry, they just have to leave. They'll go for a walk or a drive to cool down. And then, there's the calm one. The person who gets angry and somehow manages to stay calm, staring down whatever it is they're angry at until it submits. I don't even know what kind of person I am. I think there are varying types of anger in my case, ranging from "mildly annoyed" to "watch out, I'm pissed." Rarely ever do I feel like the latter. And even still, the extreme side of anger that I may possess is comparitively tame when examined next to anyone else.
I don't write about being angry very often... I'm not sure why. I'm not an angry person. You know who writes angrily very well? Sarah Hatter. Because she can convey her anger in all it's intensity, but make you laugh about it at the same time. I wish I could do that. But with me, it's more like, "Woah, she is really mad. That's sad..."
I'm just going to say that I am really angry at people and all their drama. They limbo between good and bad moods, forcing you to guess on which end their teetering all the time. Frankly, I'm fed up with all of it.
Why can't people just love God and be happy? (You don't have to answer that.)
posted by carlybish at 3:01 AM
1 Comments:
Anger is a very hard thing. It is very hard to understand and controling your anger is extremely hard to do. Lets see what the Bible has to say about Anger. Proverbs 14:29, Colossians 3:8-10.
I know what you mean when you say that you are tired of peoples drama and how they limbo between moods. I don't like trying to guess what kind of mood a person is in because you don't know how to act around him/her and you don't know what, kind of mood they are in, that in turn makes it ackward because then you don't know what to do. Also you don't know if you do one thing will it put him/her in a worse mood or make it better. Then you just have to decide what is the appropriate action to take. Just writting to let you know that I know what you mean and where you are coming from. If you ever need to know what kind of mood I am in just ask. I will be praying for you and elise.
George
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